Recently I've been thinking a lot about the old days. My friends I had in elementary school, relationship in Jr. high and the people I met in high school. The come to me in flashes, waves, in sparks. I remember who I used to be, what shaped me to become who I am now and who i am becoming for the future. I remember the people I left behind. I miss them. But now, it seems, everyone is going their own way. Shaping themselves to become the people they will become. Sometimes its good and sometimes its not. It seems there are those who I am drifting away from for one reason or another. A friend, a man I respected now involves himself in things that I never would and I have to wonder: Am I going to have to let him go? I have had to let people go before and it wasn't what I wanted but something I knew I had to do. Such things rarely are what we want. I have a confession to make. I feel as though I won't see many of my friends again someday. Life is happening. The friends I have now, in college and the people I make an effort to be with are the ones I see in my future. I say this because so many are becoming people who might eventually see me as a "downer" in some cases. For instance some of my friends like to go out and party and I've never really been to a party so I have no clue what to do. That wasn't me in high school and i don't think that's me now. To be honest we've all changed I know that. And I think from us all gaining new friends we have just changed from who we once were. We've grown up and changed from who we were those now 2 years ago. Some could say for the better some could say for the worse. It depends on how you believe you've changed.
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
-Green Day "Wake me up when September ends"
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