My thoughts are so tempting...

AHHH!!! Ever since discovering that two of my good friends are getting married my mind has been focusing on nothing but that! I keep crossing into the "I wonder who i will marry" zone or the "What would it be like if I married______?" and thinking of potential wives. Ah its just so frustrating! Part of me as of recent believes I won't be getting married till I'm done with school but I can't deny that part of me that wants a relationship. I have been since I broke up with my last girlfriend a few months ago but it just comes crashing down worse and worse as I watch the happy couples. Heck I've even considered asking out quite a few girls and its killing me. This is what happens when my brain starts thinking and I'm left alone with my thoughts for too long. I mean I know I am in no way shape or form capable f supporting myself let alone a family so why get married? But still there is that urge to know love. Even though love can be a pain. Trust me I know. This is all better yet piled high on my already emotional tower thanks to my realization of the fact that only a few days ago it was the year anniversary of my last long term relationship. Oh yeah that helped. Thanks for pointing it out Jeremy. That fueled it as well. Then going through old messages didn't help. You know reliving lies and such. There's the confusion of so many of my female friends and if they have an interest in me or not, liking a girl who is in love with a total sleaze bag and not even being noticed y her and just everything else. Gah I hate this feeling inside! Its not cool. *sigh* I suppose I'll just wait until I find the one woman for me. And try my best not to do anything too stupid until I find her. Like I once wrote some time ago:

All that man desires is not always silver and gold
Not all that man searches for is lost treasures from stories of old
No some men look for a soul to help them not walk this world alone