Tuesday, June 30, 2009
I miss the rain...
I really do. There was nothing like relaxing on a rainy day with a good book and one of many cups of tea and just relaxing. Watching the rain fall and hearing it on the roof. *sigh* I miss the rain terribly. I can't until it comes back.
Living at home...
I truly don't know how I will survive at home. I have, for the last two years lived on my "own" I suppose you could say as I lived on campus at my university. Now back here at home I am preparing to get my license so that I may commute to and from school. I don't know how I'll live here again. My freedoms are cut down as I can't stay up as late at night with my friends, really at all with anything fun to do. I'm here in the middle of family drama while before I was at school and could deal with it my own way with going and praying about it. now I'm here where everyone's nerves are grinded on and the most innocent of comments is interpreted as an attack on someones person. Combine that with our family stubbornness it makes for wicked drama and fights. I'm starting to wish I had my independence back but living at home may just help with all my distraction from my schoolwork and help my grades. My social life on the other hand...will probably be dead for a while. Oh well.
Monday, June 29, 2009
This past weekend...
Was awesome! It was a long overdue vacation away from my vacation. Went to my friend Josh's house up in Ladera (sp?) and just chilled wit him and a bunch of the other guys from school. It was awesome. A long over due playing of Call of Duty 4, tried my hand at Super Smash Bros., and gained a lot of weight thanks to his mother's awesome cooking. Josh I had an awesome time thanks for inviting me man.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Bittersweet week...
This week has been giving off positive and negative vibes. I hate it. I'm so mixed around. It sucks. Let's recap so far:
Monday
Positive:Ran into a friend I haven't see in a while and we got to hang out and just talka nd laugh about the old days.
Negative: My grandma isn't do well (she's 92) and my mother ha sbeen at the hospital with her since Saturday night. Also, my friend, as great as he is, has a addiction to Pot but says it calms him. I don't want to see him get in trouble so I made sure we didn't drive around too much. Third, a friend of mine is thinking of using her ex as a "hook up" but now she's falling for the douche bag and I've been trying to convince her not to pursue anything but lo and behold I find out some truth: She's in love with him even though he has hurt her over and over again. The world is weird.
Tuesday
Positive: My friend Kristina came to visit! Its been a while since I had seen her and I was happy seeing her. Made the day better. Finally got a green tea frappe which made the day better.
Negative: My mom came back home from seeing my grandma and she was tired beyond all reason and really needed sleep but woke up feeling sick in the middle of the night, interrupting said sleep. My friend is trapped with her feeling for this guy and he's one of the main causes for her lack of confidnce and low self asteem. I hate what he's done to her.
Wednesday
Positive:....I got to sleep in? Well no I do that already I think that its more I actually got a full nights sleep for once (I have been getting anywhere from 5-6 hours). So yeah. I also get to go to church since the big guy and I need to talk some.
Negative: My idiot of a nephew is pulling his stupid crap again, thus making my mother frustrated and sad. To top that off he's dating a girl who is no good for him and is crazy. Then a good friend of mine texts me telling me on how he had ended his strong running relationship of four months with his girlfriend, her stating that he didn't try hard enough to see her. Which made me quite angry as I was told something to the same affect when I broke up with my ex a year ago. So he's bummed out and right now its only 11:20. The day is still young and this crap has already happened. Bleh. Well let's see how the rest of this day turns out and hopefully tomorrow will be better. I just have to make it to friday when I leave for the weekend to a friends house.
Thursday
Positive: I had a doctors appointment but it got canceled and extended until the 7th of July. Win. Um... ah! I got to see my grandmother last night which, God willing will not be the last time. My friend has come to her sense and now see's the idiot ex she was going to hook up with as a person who was going to only use her so she dropped him like a bad habit. My nephew came over but I didn't get a chance to speak to him. Which is a bummer.
Negative: I keep getting a call from this Christian university for the past few days. I have a hard time saying no to people and this guy won't take the hint. I feel bad because I lied to give him a moment to explain about his school and now I feel bad because he feels I belong there but I'm not going so I need to make it clear today that I'm not interested. And as I've learned Michael Jackson died. Sure we made all the jokes and poked fun but in my opinion the man's music was legendary. Good bye Michael. Another negative is the trouble amongst family with the recent illness of my grandmother. A fight yesterday broke out between my mother and her brother, my uncle. Needless to say this ended with them being asked to leave and my mother promising not to go back up there. Ugh.
Friday
Positive: Today is the day when I get to see my friends and take a vacation away from my vacation. I can't wait!
Monday
Positive:Ran into a friend I haven't see in a while and we got to hang out and just talka nd laugh about the old days.
Negative: My grandma isn't do well (she's 92) and my mother ha sbeen at the hospital with her since Saturday night. Also, my friend, as great as he is, has a addiction to Pot but says it calms him. I don't want to see him get in trouble so I made sure we didn't drive around too much. Third, a friend of mine is thinking of using her ex as a "hook up" but now she's falling for the douche bag and I've been trying to convince her not to pursue anything but lo and behold I find out some truth: She's in love with him even though he has hurt her over and over again. The world is weird.
Tuesday
Positive: My friend Kristina came to visit! Its been a while since I had seen her and I was happy seeing her. Made the day better. Finally got a green tea frappe which made the day better.
Negative: My mom came back home from seeing my grandma and she was tired beyond all reason and really needed sleep but woke up feeling sick in the middle of the night, interrupting said sleep. My friend is trapped with her feeling for this guy and he's one of the main causes for her lack of confidnce and low self asteem. I hate what he's done to her.
Wednesday
Positive:....I got to sleep in? Well no I do that already I think that its more I actually got a full nights sleep for once (I have been getting anywhere from 5-6 hours). So yeah. I also get to go to church since the big guy and I need to talk some.
Negative: My idiot of a nephew is pulling his stupid crap again, thus making my mother frustrated and sad. To top that off he's dating a girl who is no good for him and is crazy. Then a good friend of mine texts me telling me on how he had ended his strong running relationship of four months with his girlfriend, her stating that he didn't try hard enough to see her. Which made me quite angry as I was told something to the same affect when I broke up with my ex a year ago. So he's bummed out and right now its only 11:20. The day is still young and this crap has already happened. Bleh. Well let's see how the rest of this day turns out and hopefully tomorrow will be better. I just have to make it to friday when I leave for the weekend to a friends house.
Thursday
Positive: I had a doctors appointment but it got canceled and extended until the 7th of July. Win. Um... ah! I got to see my grandmother last night which, God willing will not be the last time. My friend has come to her sense and now see's the idiot ex she was going to hook up with as a person who was going to only use her so she dropped him like a bad habit. My nephew came over but I didn't get a chance to speak to him. Which is a bummer.
Negative: I keep getting a call from this Christian university for the past few days. I have a hard time saying no to people and this guy won't take the hint. I feel bad because I lied to give him a moment to explain about his school and now I feel bad because he feels I belong there but I'm not going so I need to make it clear today that I'm not interested. And as I've learned Michael Jackson died. Sure we made all the jokes and poked fun but in my opinion the man's music was legendary. Good bye Michael. Another negative is the trouble amongst family with the recent illness of my grandmother. A fight yesterday broke out between my mother and her brother, my uncle. Needless to say this ended with them being asked to leave and my mother promising not to go back up there. Ugh.
Friday
Positive: Today is the day when I get to see my friends and take a vacation away from my vacation. I can't wait!
Monday, June 15, 2009
So I was bored about a week ago and decided to watch some tv. Now its daytime TV so I knew there would probably be nothing on until I saw something that caught my eye. I began watching the Tyra show since the subject today was straight girls kissing to get attention. I was genuinely intrigued and decided to watch. In one guests story she talks about how during parties when the song "I kissed a girl" comes on guys want the girls to kiss and most do. After that my brain began working (which sucks because I'm on vacation and I'm not supposed to be thinking) and I decided to address some things in the show.
Why is it that girls want attention so bad that they'll resort to kissing another woman just so guys will talk to them. Girls complain about being objectified by men all the time but when things like this go on its a wonder why. Sure that is to say men don't objectify women when they are not doing something of the sort but when girls do this to get attention it doesn't exactly help. Now i mean no offense when I write this so no lynch mobs coming after me please. Now why is it, I honestly don't understand, that women seek so much attention? Now see I am not a judgmental person, a psychologist or anything of the sort. But that doesn't stop other people from judging. Unfortunately this seems to be how society works. Everyone is separated by where they stand in society. There are those who find it appropriate and feel they are not hurting anyone by doing such actions and there are those who feel its giving others (lesbians were used as the comparison in the show) who feel its painting a bad image and representation. Which is true because it seems they are "playing lesbian" to get attention while those who are lesbians who do tis as a show of affection may feel offended. I mean how owuld you feel, a lesbian, kissing your significant other when a guy comes up and starts hitting on you? Then when he calls you a tease after explaining your a lesbian, and probably not believing you a whole fight breaks out. This sort of behavior is building up a negative thing and eventually we'll stop hearing about it. Not because it has stopped but because it will eventually become a widely acceptable thing. Normal to be seen at parties, bars, clubs, hotels, etc. Not ot mention its also done even in schools, one of the shows guests being twins, one who was doing such actions, only being in highschool. Not to mention what kind of message are women sending when they kiss other women in bars and places like the sort. Does this message convey a message of "I want a relationship, bf or a one night stand?" And what kind of men will these girls attract anyway? The kind who would push her to do things it would seem like. What happens in the future if the man wants to bring another woman into their relationship and she says no? How will a woman answer when he asks "But what about when I met you and you were making out with that girl? I thought you would like this sort of thing?" The woman has placed herself into a situation where it is preconceived she will act and do certain things. The person has formed a sort of reputation. What's worse is them using a song like "I kissed a girl" in such a way where it can't really be enjoyed as a song anymore but now a song which is used at parties to kiss other girls. What is this world coming to? Now would women talk to a man if he was making out with another man? Chances are no since she would probably think he is a homosexual and he already has a prtner and wold move on. So what is stopping a man from seeing such a scene and thinking the same thing? So please consider all that I've said here. Now I'll use my disclaimer since i didn't want people shutting down before they read my blog.
Dosclaimer: I am a Christian. I do not advocate homosexuality, or homosexual practices. I am though not judgmental. I dislike the sin not the sinner. Please do not flame me or anything this is only my opinion on this subject which relfects my beliefs but please just take into consideration what I have said.
In case you're interested here is the link to a video on the Tyra website and some comments left.
http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/2009/06/what_do_you_think_of_straight.php?page=17
Why is it that girls want attention so bad that they'll resort to kissing another woman just so guys will talk to them. Girls complain about being objectified by men all the time but when things like this go on its a wonder why. Sure that is to say men don't objectify women when they are not doing something of the sort but when girls do this to get attention it doesn't exactly help. Now i mean no offense when I write this so no lynch mobs coming after me please. Now why is it, I honestly don't understand, that women seek so much attention? Now see I am not a judgmental person, a psychologist or anything of the sort. But that doesn't stop other people from judging. Unfortunately this seems to be how society works. Everyone is separated by where they stand in society. There are those who find it appropriate and feel they are not hurting anyone by doing such actions and there are those who feel its giving others (lesbians were used as the comparison in the show) who feel its painting a bad image and representation. Which is true because it seems they are "playing lesbian" to get attention while those who are lesbians who do tis as a show of affection may feel offended. I mean how owuld you feel, a lesbian, kissing your significant other when a guy comes up and starts hitting on you? Then when he calls you a tease after explaining your a lesbian, and probably not believing you a whole fight breaks out. This sort of behavior is building up a negative thing and eventually we'll stop hearing about it. Not because it has stopped but because it will eventually become a widely acceptable thing. Normal to be seen at parties, bars, clubs, hotels, etc. Not ot mention its also done even in schools, one of the shows guests being twins, one who was doing such actions, only being in highschool. Not to mention what kind of message are women sending when they kiss other women in bars and places like the sort. Does this message convey a message of "I want a relationship, bf or a one night stand?" And what kind of men will these girls attract anyway? The kind who would push her to do things it would seem like. What happens in the future if the man wants to bring another woman into their relationship and she says no? How will a woman answer when he asks "But what about when I met you and you were making out with that girl? I thought you would like this sort of thing?" The woman has placed herself into a situation where it is preconceived she will act and do certain things. The person has formed a sort of reputation. What's worse is them using a song like "I kissed a girl" in such a way where it can't really be enjoyed as a song anymore but now a song which is used at parties to kiss other girls. What is this world coming to? Now would women talk to a man if he was making out with another man? Chances are no since she would probably think he is a homosexual and he already has a prtner and wold move on. So what is stopping a man from seeing such a scene and thinking the same thing? So please consider all that I've said here. Now I'll use my disclaimer since i didn't want people shutting down before they read my blog.
Dosclaimer: I am a Christian. I do not advocate homosexuality, or homosexual practices. I am though not judgmental. I dislike the sin not the sinner. Please do not flame me or anything this is only my opinion on this subject which relfects my beliefs but please just take into consideration what I have said.
In case you're interested here is the link to a video on the Tyra website and some comments left.
http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/2009/06/what_do_you_think_of_straight.php?page=17
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
That's so gay...
Just last night I had seen a similar video on television and it got me thinking about some things. Now more often than not when we say something using the word gay its context varies from using as a term for homosexuality or as in a replacement for saying dumb, retarded or stupid, etc. Now I think the use of the word depends on context and in what you are referencing too. Now i know what you might be thinking that 9 times out of 10 someone is referencing that to a homosexual person. Okay. But what irks me about this is that it almost seems that, after years of saying not to say gay because it offends homosexuals that it seems they've come to accept this as a term for homosexuality. Now i know it is an offensive term often used to describe homosexuals but then again they use it themselves as they call events as "gay pride". Is it because of its context? Well if someone was to use it in a different manner attempting to use it as a substitute for a word does that make it right? I would like to hear your thoughts on this issue please. Also if you have any questions on what I said above or need clarification. Thank you.
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