I checked online for my grades today. I needed to get all B's in my classes to return to my university for the next semester. Upon checking my grades I discovered I had two already up.
Old Testament History and Literature: C-
Theology II: C+
I tried. Sure sometimes not my best but I tried and I honestly wanted to come back. I've been sad these last few days at the end of the year because of my leaving my friends for summer. Now I'll have to wait a year until I can spend time with them again. I'm sad that I won't see them. One thing does surprise me. I'm not angry at God. I know I'm trying to hold it back because everything works for the best in the end with his will. I'm kind of numb now but i think it'll sink in soon enough. I have to spend a year some where else away from my friends. I miss them already. Maybe not all hope is gone. Maybe there is something i can do. Maybe there isn't. I don't see the big picture right now but I will someday. I would just like to thank God for my wonderful friends and for the opportunity of sending me to Biola. I will come back. I'll try harder, I'll develop better study habits. I'll do it for God and my family and friends.
Disclaimer: This was written before I found out about the fact that they extended my probation period so I am returning but even so I will still try harder and do my best.
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