Recent events...

Recently a range of emotions has just been moving through me and my heart. I have been feeling this hate growing inside me for my ex girlfriend. I truly want to make her feel the same hurt that i did. I could do so many things in order to do so. I could tell her about how I actually wanted to get with someone else instead of her, that when I had told someone I was interested in somebody else I was actually not talking about her, how I smoked the day of our beach trip because she was giving me stress, and so many other things. I wish I could just look her dead in the eyes and tell her that its her fault for everything and if she wants me back that it's already too late. Not ot mention I constantly feel a battle being raged within me. I keep having this feeling of all my negative emotions and evil inside are wanting to get out. Add that to the constant lack of even a small piece of respect and the idea gets better and better.